I wonder

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As I roll back the years

Turn back the clock

Wipe away my tears of regret

 

I wonder

 

Were you ever really happy?

I’ve forgotten your smile

Something rare, seen once in a while

 

I wonder

 

What were you thinking

With the voices inside your head

That played havoc with your moods?

 

I wonder

 

Do you have the answers

To all the things that I seek?

Is it your voice, that calls me in my sleep?

 

I wonder

 

Was it written in the stars?

For your life to end that way

Never saying goodbye on that solitary day

 

I wonder

 

When I look up at the stars

Was it you who just winked at me

Reassuring me with your glimmering light?

 

I wonder

 

Will you blow out a candle

On this day when your life began

When you received your deck of cards?

 

I wonder

 

Was it you who held my hand

All those times when I felt so forlorn?

Is it you who leaves gifts for me everyday?

 

Perhaps I shouldn’t wonder – I already know.

When I gaze into the mirror and see you looking back at me.