caught out, no place to hide,
save behind a cloak of fraudulent
courage, eloquence and bearing,
hiding behind my procrastination.
I saw you in my reflections, in books,
mirrors, walking tall in the shadows,
waking me violently from my sleep,
forcing out my resentment and rage.
You knew my weakness all this time but
with a vindictive smirk on your face,
slouching around every corner in disguise –
but I found you!
now you have found out that I have
new protectors, angels, guides,
even soldiers and God on my side.
You are now moving with stealth.
meanwhile time is racing and
I cannot – will not let you win!